Well said: "That's the way emotions work.  There is no logic behind them.  They just are.  And they always will be."

Now the question is whether your emotions surrounding a chance encounter with the past will affect your actions or not. The question also is whether your emotions reflect a reality or a fantasy or mixture of the two. There were reasons why your emotions did not carry you and your former friend through to a different path than the one you took. Has something in the equation changed significantly?

We can love many people, some more compatibly than others. Unless a relationship ends because love has already ceased, love doesn't cease because a relationship ends. We learn to live with unrequited love. The question is whether you truly love your current girlfriend enough to consider marriage. The question is also if you are ready for the commitment of marriage. Since you view marriage as being several years in the future, my guess is that you're jumping the gun in thinking about it with your current girlfriend. My thought is that when it's right, you'll know.

Whatever you do, I hope that whenever you decide that marriage is for you, that you will commit yourself to it wholeheartedly. Most people who get divorced, knew what their ex was like before they got married but married them anyway because they liked the idea of being married or thought they could change the other person. We can only change ourselves and only if we want to and are willing to do what it takes to change in the direction that's right for us. If your doubts are about whether you're ready for commitment, wait. If your doubts are about whether you can spend the rest of your life with your current girlfriend, you need to be more open with her and get to know her and yourself better. You need to work at filling in the gaps in how you both operate and how you both feel. You need to figure out whether you both are willing to do what it takes to achieve balance and if you can achieve balance without denying yourself the freedom to be who you really are. You and she also need to determine if what draws you together is healthy or unhealthy. If it's unhealthy, it will only become more so over time.

Are you ready to forsake all others? Are you ready to put the woman you marry first? Are you able to feel happier and a better person because your commitment is to someone worthy of the best you have to offer?

There was some reason why your former girlfriend rushed off after only 2 minutes. It had to do with her priorities or with her comfort level in seeing you again. Perhaps she even feared rejection and left quickly to avoid it. Or perhaps she knew she wanted you to be part of her past, not her present. If you need to answer some of these questions, that's up to you. But be careful about throwing away a good relationship on a past one which lacked balance and of which you remember the good, but have blocked out the bad from your memory.

You need to clarify what you want in order to know whether you can get what you want with any woman you've already met. Good luck.

i hear what your saying but thats my opinion period

i do understand what your on about though cos englands going through a similar thing with petrol prices. sucks doesnt it??

wb

xx

wow, im totally loving this entry.

gas prices here last week were 4.07. it royally sucked.

but thankfully! they're only 3.80 or something this week. its totally awesommmme!!!!!

it only took 40 dollars to fill up my tank!!! yay!

anyway, i hope your gas problems (tahaha) get better soon!

<3

The last part bored me, love. But I just skipped to the commenting. What do I fink? USA won't do anyfin. They're too busy doing unknown experiments on the civilians to worry about sumfin like that. The truth, love.

-Jovonnah Bunny Rabbit (Pyromaniac Bunny)

omg ur going into the favs LMAO.

u r soooooooooo rite. lol

Hahaha this definitely made my night better and actually made me laugh. Sounds like something I would say... Lol.

-Ashley

I hear you loud and clear !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rant and Rave all you wish..you make a good point...I would vote for you any day!!

so your saying that the other countries have it easy basically?? yeah...cos iraq has it right easy...

and also america cant just push their weight around to get what they want just cos their a supercountrie. i know they do. and thats what you are basically suggesting here. but it just doesnt seem right to me tbh

you probably hate me for saying all of that now. but you had your opinion and i can have mine too. so ive said it.

and yes you were right. i did read it :P

xx

The basic flow of events and descriptions works as the poem builds. The use of repetition and refrain adds power. The use of rhymed couplets creates structure. In that way you've built a successful first draft. What needs further work is the rhythm--at this point you have not yet nailed the consistency of the rhythm. Free form doesn't apply because there's already structure imposed by the couplets and a main rhythm that predominates, which makes the places where the rhythm gets lost stand out noticeably. Also the word "over" in the 11th stanza comes where one would expect the second part of a rhymed couplet and therefore doesn't fit with the line above. If you like this poem enough, let's see a second draft. I think it's good enough that it's worth another draft. Good luck.

Haha, that's pretty good. I like it.

~Alaina~

hah..very nice.

-peyton.<3

Having as a child my beliefs shaped by my parents according to the precepts of Reform Judaism, I was never taught about The Devil or Hell in the context of how it is viewed by Christianity. God was everywhere; God saw and knew everything; we were accountable to God for our thoughts and our deeds. When I first developed some modesty, I was kind of uncomfortable about God watching me wipe my behind, and we won't even get into God and masturbation.

I was 7 when on the 4th of July a neighbor girl who was a year or 2 older and who attended Catholic school joined us as we burned those charcoal "snakes" sold as fireworks on the sidewalk in front of our second apartment. It was in that context that she instructed my brother and me about the Devil and Hell and about bad people burning for Eternity. Of course this bothered us and we asked our parents to verify this part of the story and explain their omission in our religious training.

My parents explained that Jews and Catholics had different ideas about how God ruled the world and that since we were Jews, we could rest assured that the Devil did not exist nor did Hell. This was a great relief since I still had some trepidations about the Bogey Man and I was still terrified of the image of the Wolf on the cover of my father's 78 rpm album of Prokofiev's "Peter and the Wolf."

Somehow I got Peter's theme and the Wolf's theme confused and every time I'd hear Peter's theme, I'd leave the room and cover my head with a pillow. The day I grew up enough to overcome my fear was the day in second grade when the music teacher came to our room and played Peter's theme on the piano. I thought about running out screaming, but thought better of it and sat there hoping it would be over soon.

I was introduced at age 3 or 4 to the idea of the Bogey Man by the girl whose grandmother owned the old Victorian boarding house next door to our first apartment. Ironically that girl who was my age was also Christian. My mother had taken me there one evening to see their Christmas tree all lit up in rainbow colors and blinking since as first generation American Jews, my parents would not have a Christmas tree in their home since they were already offending my father's family (his parents and siblings) enough by not keeping Kosher. I'm sure my father's family who maintained Orthodox Jewish traditions were certain we were out of favor with God for eating bacon in our home, which is why they would never come over for meals, except for and aunt who was also practicing Reform Judaism and an Uncle who, although Orthodox and keeping Kosher in his home, liked to celebrate the time as a kid when he skipped school and bought himself a ham sandwich. He was at our apartment every Sunday morning for breakfast. But even he never seemed to fear God over that issue.

Sure we had read about the Serpent in the Garden of Eden, but since he didn't bite Adam and Eve and didn't try to strangle them and since all he did was get them to eat an apple, I didn't have much fear of him later as I would have after having learned about rattle snales, copperheads, and pythons. And let's not even talk about spiders! Ew!! Outside, they have as much right as I do. Inside, if I can catch them it's the royal flush. Not in MY house!

I was taught God was a loving God, but I'm still trying to figure out that Abraham and Isaac stuff. Once on the news there was a story about a father who killed his child. I can remember riding in the back seat of the car while my father was driving and wondering if I was safe, although I had always felt safe with my father until the idea that a father or mother could kill their child entered my mind. For a while I tried to sleep with one eye open. I also wondered if I were in danger of being taken into the woods and abandoned. Sure God was everywhere, but those angels in Hansel and Gretel and the Sandman were almost as scary as the witch. Come to think of it I did worry about the Sandman creeping around my room at night, although I never feared the Tooth Fairy.

And then even though we were Jewish, my mother always took us downtown to have our picture taken on Santa's lap for a dollar and then get a grab bag gift from the department store. Santa seemed to be sort of like God in that he knew when we've been good or bad--so be good for goodness sakes! I think for a long time I think I thought the worst thing that could happen to me was not to get anything for Christmas. I didn't really grasp what Chanukah was until at age 6 we joined a Temple so that I could attend religious school which is where I learned about the Serpent in the Garden of Eden from our Bible Comic Book.

What did we need the Devil for? We had the God of the Old Testament who seemed as irrational as my father when he was angry, but who like my father usually did the right thing. I never thought of God and the Devil as being the same because I never really thought of the Devil as being real like God and Santa and the Bogey Man and the Wolf.

When I was seven I discovered a copy of a 1945 Time Magazine in the closet while I was broiling hotdogs for my brother and myself while my mother was with the neighbor downstairs. As I discovered the photos of the liberation of the concentration camps with the living skeletons and the piles of charred remains from the furnaces in big stacks in a courtyard of the camp, the hotdogs burned and by the time the smoke from the kitchen jarred my memory, I opened the broiler to find charred remaines of hotdogs bathing in puddles of grease. I couldn't eat hotdogs for months afterwards. Oh, the horrors! the horrors! There were terrible things in this world that scared the hell out of me. If there was a Devil, his name was Hitler whose Svengali powers over the crowds of heiling Germans was far more frightening to me that some snake wrapped around an apple tree.

I AM laughing! You also got me thinking--or at least thinking I should be thinking.

As for the little boy who asked his dad "What is Politics?", he'll probably have his own show on cable someday. He may even hold public office--at least until he becomes embroiled in a scandal of his own. I'd love to be a fly on the wall (pardon the expression) when dad tells his son the facts of life with regard to sex.

i agree but disagree at the same time...

Yes If someone ever EVER touched my child I would kill them..

but life in prison for it? i think that would also be good because a child molester in prison? the person's gonna die anyway because prisoner's dont play that

I met someone who was released from prison after serving 13 years of a life sentence on conviction of a murder she did not commit. In fact, she was the person who called the police to report the murder after she discovered the proprietor of a business shot to death. She had been represented by an appointed attorney who had not even practiced criminal law until that point. Financial resources were limited and the free attorney was not afforded the means to fund a thorough investigation. After 13 years a top attorney who worked with a group investigating wrongful sentencing proved that the police and prosecution had purposely withheld evidence that proved her innocence from the defense because for political expediation they needed to convict someone--apparently anyone because the case was playing out as high profile in the media.

DNA evidence when it is available does help to prove a case, but in absence of DNA evidence--the child may have been bathed afterwards by a parent in denial or worse--it gets harder to prove. Research (videotaped interviews included) have revealed how by asking a child old enough to be interviewed leading or otherwise inappropriate questions, their desire to please an adult interviewer can contaminate their responses. When a doll is used, an adult who asks about a particular part of the doll can cause a child to focus on that part whether it is relevant to the truth or not. Also in situations where one parent is accused of abuse, the other may poison the well by creating a new reality in the mind of the child by saying things about the accused parent to influence the child's sense of reality. Such parental influence occurs frequently in custody battles.

You can make a credible argument that the death penalty may result in justice for heinous crimes, but the trouble with laws is that they remain general at so many levels and fail to take the what if's into account. Because juries are given limited choices, they have a tough time saying--there's enough evidence to make us want to keep this person off the street but not enough evidence to condemn him to death. Juries acting out of fear may lack the courage to admit there is not enough evidence at times.

In recent years some college classes in forensics have sometimes taken on projects to reinvestigate crimes that have resulted in captial murder convictions. In Illinois the results of research by students revealed such a high level of wrongful convictions that the death penalty was put on hold. The chance of innocent people being executed after being convicted is certainly cause for concern. The death penalty is absolutely final--which is your point--and cannot be reversed. The law that would sentence to death someone who definitely committed a crime could also sentence to death someone who did not because the investigation or the trial procedures were seriously flawed--unintentionally or not. To support a death penalty without reservation places, in my estimation, too much trust in police, prosecutors, judges, legislators, expert witnesses, eye-witnesses, the media, and politicians in general.

So did OJ kill Nichole Simpson and Danny Goldman? The trial system said no. The system in which you put your trust has limits when it comes to determining guilt or innocence.

Also new brain research (Dr. Daniel Amen, for one) is showing that some people are predisposed to certain behaviors that can lead to murder. Brain damage from sports injuries, falls, and other accidents as well as birth defects which may result in a significant level of retardation, emotional imbalance, and an inability to control impulsive behavior--depending on which part of the brain is damaged--is overlooked or underestimated. SPECT scan images can reveal damaged parts of a brain and ability of researchers to wire the brain to determine which areas of the brain support which behavioral functions had introduced a lot of new, useful information into the equation in recent years. The laws and practices of the justice system have not caught up yet with this recent and important information.

If you've ever looked at laws governing child support, you may find that many legislators often fail to do the math because the formulas sometimes don't translate into amounts meeting children's health and welfare needs. As we learned with the vote in Congress to go to war in Iraq, most of those who voted didn't have time to read the entire bill. This is often the case in how laws are passed. Instead of solving practical problems, the legislature is often arguing those hot button issues that will never be solved satisfactorily nor will affect the vast majority of the citizens dependent on legislators to help them preserve life, liberty, and pursuit of happiness.

The good news is that the Supreme Court says it's all right for people to carry guns. Who even needs laws when vigilante justice (as well as crime) is just an arm's length away? Whatever happened to tar and feathers anyway?Progress is slow in human endeavors, but we don't read very much about lynchings anymore--although occasionally we learn that they do still happen. Civilization is one more thing sorely limited by our imaginations.

I'm not actually disagreeing with you. I'm just trying to point out that there are other ways to look at the issue that should not be overlooked when considering justice. Thanks.

You are so cool.

One thing that I would like to add, make sure that their necks don't break right off and then give the victim a baseball bat and let them play piñata (or however it is spelled.) This would be a further deterrent and would also be the beginning of the victim’s therapy.

Aleksandr

 oh no, you misunderstand me, my friend. I wasn't intentionally trying to downplay it. I do believe most sincerely that it IS a horrible crime. I was only trying to find the right words to say. Guess I messed up again.  I have a foot-shaped mouth. :X

you do have some very interesting and valid points. here's a question for you though. If a person should get the death penalty for raping a child, then should not also a person get the death penalty for raping anyone? Why is a child more important than an adult? why save a child from the crime if more than likely they will suffer it later in life and nothing be done about it?

just some random thoughts that i'm very interested in hearing your opinion about.

It's sad how to suspect(s) in a case has more rights than the victim(s). I don't know if you believe in God. But I believe that God will have the final say when it comes to delivering the proper justice for the victims and punishment to the people who caused the victims harm.

I've read your entry & all of the comments it has received.
I agree the most with the comment below me.
I have a 11 year old son... though I don't think the death penalty is the answer I do know that if anyone would ever so much as touch my child I would administer my own form of capital punishment.
And even though there are things in this country that I don't agree with I have never been ashamed to be an American!
Take care.
~Mystic

[MysticTears]

But isn't it true that there is a little bit of good in everyone?
If there is a reason for everything, isn't there a reason for that person's actions? I mean, we're talking about life and death. I'm not saying that this act should not be punished, I'm all for the punishment. There needs to be justice. I've known people who've killed and haven't gotten the death sentence. Shouldn't you be more worried about that?
I know every situation is different, but I believe that most people just need serious help. Wasn't it you who wrote those poems of a good man turned serial killer? Sure, the 'boogeyman' could have seemed like a horrible person to the press and the rest of the world, but he was once human.

True. But like I said, the only person who should deliver the punishment should be the kid's parents. Whether he lives (hard labor for life, of course) or dies should be left to the caretakers (usually parents) of that child, or to me, by default, because I am damn sure I would show this piece of sh*t a good time...I would set the bastard on fire and let him bleed to death for a friggin' year, I tell you that much.

Child abuse is the one thing I can't handle well, sorry.

this rly upsets me
i mean when i was 13 i was raped and the guy gotput in jail for 4 months
that made me want to shoot myself
and sh*t like this pisses me off
this article made me sick
i cant belive it
it is bullsh*t

I am sorry to disagree with death penalty for child rapists...that would be an easy way out.

I think the fairest punishment would be to let the child molester and the family of the kid together on the same room for a month. Parents should be granted pardon for whatever act they did, so they would be free to treat the guy in whatever way they see fit. Tools would also be given as requested (a saw, a hammer, whatever the family fancy).

If the rapist survive, death penalty or hard labor. If the rapist die, then it would save lots of money and a fat electrical bill (if your state uses the chair).

That would really bring peace to the family, as they would be free to punish the guy. I am sure their psychological wounds would heal faster that way.

So the article was about how children were being raped, and you think the rapist should be convicted? Sorry, I'm only fourteen, some of the words confuse me (:

[magesticBEAUTY]

poeple who rape children deserve to DIE!!! They are monsters that dont deserve a light punishment such as jailtime because once they go out they will do it again!!!  I have a 5 year old boy and if something like that happened I would  torture the bastard and then shoot him in the head! 

That's horrible they are RETARDED WHO WOULD ALLOW THAT? Poor kids get raped by perverted of wrinkly men and the dumb rapists don't die???? That's bullcrap the kid is suffering and having nightmares and the lucky dick is alive?!?!?!

Yours Truely,

Elina :]

I dont really get it so someone raped your kid       

                                                -Rosy

go to www.joke.com and laugh your ass off at the jokes of your choice.

But here's one:

Why did the chicken cross the road?

Because he's an idiot! ROFLLMAO!!!!!

Okay okay so joke are not my forte---WHATEVER!

A psychiatrist was observing three young mother. He was telling them their obsessions. He said to the first mother, "You are obsessed with money. You named your daughter Penny."

He said to the second mother, "You are obsessed with food, you named your daughter Candy."

The last mother looked at him sadly, and she said to her son, "Come on, Dick, lets go home." 

So a blonde texts everyone saying "Hey guys what does IDK mean?"

They reply "I dont know"

blonde says "OMG nobody does!!"

ha ha stupid but still a joke.

he choked..on a biscuit.
the genius mass murderer...choked on a biscuit

that is freakin genius. no one would ever expect that!!! i love it.

haha lovee the jokess! ima blonde buh i still love the blonde jokes..i got 1 for ya..its about Viagra! okay so this dude walks into the doctors office and he says Dr. i REALLY need viagra and the doctor says okay ill give you a dosage..the guy goes no, i need two dosages! and the doctor says are you crazy! two dosages is way to much! so the guys goes doc please..i got ma wife comin over friday..my ex wife comin over saturday and my girlfriend comin over sunday i really need it..so the doctor says okay..buh ill need 2 see you back here on monday to make sure everything is okay..so the guys comes back monday with a sling on his arm..the doctor goes OMG WHAT HAPPENED!!? the man replies..no one showed up..hehe if you need some explaining juz comment me back buh i find it hilarious if u get it!

You got your entry, pal. I sincerely hope you can enjoy it.

Mark.

I'm sorry to here about all that trouble. I wish you the best of luck and hope all turns out well.

Dizzy

 I concur... One of the things I hate, is people who start smoking to be a man, and when the DO become a man, they are not man enough to stop smoking.

 There are a lot of stupid people in this world. And just about everyone does stupid things. But my stupid things are not always your stupid things. And some of the stupid things that I do(according to you) are things that I might value highly.(such as having a tatto of William Shatner or Haleys comet on my butt) 

hah. this is brilliant..really & truly. it is. you are extremely blunt in this entry & i like that b/c with the situations you come across. i totally agree with the "ana's" thing. i've seen queit a few of those entries on here...& i understand too how it is a horrible disorder, but i find it so naive that others would congradualte or encourage that behavior. you're right. they really are stupid. i could understand more if they really wanted help, but then again..some people just never grow up or learn to want things. better things. so just choose to be naive.

anyway, about your ex. total b!tch for treating you like that. i am sorry. but for the record, to know you are a good guy, and you take care of your daughter. thats just really good to know. at least your daughter will have 1 good role model. & why your ex lies to sound good"better"? its because she doesnt want you to realize or know that in the end shes paying for what she did. and shes suffering, unlike you who is actually holding on really well :)

-Peyton.<3

I don't think someone can decide to become anorexic over night. I don't think people just stop eating all of a sudden. Its almost impossible to do that. I love reading how people "ruined" their fasts, or ask "ana" to help them as if ana were a person. I had a drinking problem before my pregnancy and I never asked Jack to help me.

My brother had to drop a few classes one semester because he was so addicted to world of warcraft...why spend that much damn money on college and not go?

I think the real problem is that people are too sensitive these days. I really believe that is it. They can't deal with their problems without therapy or medication. I know some people really need these things, but I think the majority are hypochondriacs. I am not saying I have never been on meds or been in therapy, I have...but not to tell every one about it. Not for sympathy. Not to be congratulated on getting help. I hate appraisal and sympathy. I really really do.

I know what you are saying. People need to grow the f*** up.

Hey -

Thanks for the GPA info, very helpful.

I know a lot of morons. My sister in law is the first that springs to mind. But that's another story.

I am in agreement with you regarding 'anas'. I won't deny that I have a f***ed up relationship with food and swing between gorging myself, and starving myself. It's deep rooted, from some traumatic stuff that happened to me during adolesence, and I just haven't had the balls to deal with it yet. That's MY problem, no one elses. And for the record, because of my behaviour towards food, I'm a little chunky. That's how it is.

But I, like you, get so tired of people begging 'ana' to make them thin. Being unrealistic and stupid, and making big deals out of nothing. If you watch their diaries, they tend to disappear after about 12 entries, 4 of those entries made on the first day they had the diary.

Anorexia's no joke, but I don't have it. Nor do most of the girls on here crapping on about weight loss. We're all liars, and you'll find a circle that lie to 'beat' each other. Whatever.

I have the same attitude as you towards study. If you can't turn up to class, why are you doing the course? What happens when you finish and get your job, and you have a bad day? Do you take the next day off? Think of it as elimination. You finished your degree. The losers did not. You're successful because you made good choices and formed the right attitude. The idiots still flipping burgers are doing that because they can't handle responsibility.

Sorry if I sound negative and arrogant, I guess it's my mood today!

In short - I liked your entry. haha.

Ash

Hi,

Thanks for your comment,

I bent down on my bed i put my fists together and i put my head down and i pray in my head. I like it like that sometime i see god in my head [[kinda]] [:

And im sorry about u and ur mom ]:

[Polkadotcutie186]

Saskatoon, saskatchewan, canada

Toronto ON, Canada! I <3 My Country!!